I still tend to think that I’m 18 years old most of the time. My time in INTEC was like a dream. I didn’t have the time to actually drill into my head that I turned 19 last year. I guess my final year of SAM overshadowed everything. It was always there, looming over all of us. Even when we were having fun, I guess each of us knew that we will be taking the exam that will practically determine our whole future. When that was over and done with, I thought that my spirits will improve, instead, I had a bad feeling inside me for the next few weeks. Somehow, I just felt that I messed up somewhere and it’s going to cost me. Thankfully, nothing of that sort happened.

Last year was also filled with anticipation, all my hopes of being accepted. To be able to leave this place. In a few more weeks, I’ll be leaving this place, to start a brand new chapter of my life as an undergraduate. Suddenly, everything is happening too fast. It suddenly dawned on me that I’ll be turning 20 this year. I’ll be leaving home, staying alone in a totally new environment. I knew this was going to happen but it seemed insignificant to me before this. I actually couldn’t wait to go. I couldn’t understand why some people find it so hard to move on. Now, however, I realise what is it I have to leave behind and I do feel a little reluctant. I know I will go, I won’t turn back, I’ve been dreaming and working so hard for this for so long.

Everyday is precious to me now. Every minute that I spent here at home, in KK, I’m trying to make the most of my time here….